My best friend since 7th grade is getting hitched in a month, and I'm her maid of dishonor. I'm throwing her bridal shower, which has been crazy because I live 330 miles away from her. So, today, I'm packing up my supplies and heading north to throw a shower that will buck all bridal shower trends. We're not playing those stupid games, it's not in the middle of the afternoon and it going to be a kick ass cocktail party in an equally kick ass loft hotel suite. And, since it's a cocktail party, I'm excited to get dressed up all fancy. I bought a fabulous little black dress in February for a wedding, and have only worn it once, so it will be nice to get some more mileage out of it this weekend. I'm excited and if I remember to bring my camera, I'll post some pictures.
My mom is giving me some furniture that she's had since I was a child, including a 22-year old IKEA table. I know, it's crazy that stuff from IKEA can last that long, but it's solid wood and totally kick ass. I think I'll hang on to it as long as possible so one day I can say "hey look at my vintage IKEA table."
In sadder news, one of my cousins died. Suicide. It's so horrible and I shouldn't even be writing it on here, but I feel like I have to. I have 17 first cousins, but because my family is fucked up and spread out all over this country, I haven't met 4 of them. One of the 4 is a 20 year old guy, that is a product of one of my uncle's first marriage, who ended his life this week. I don't know what transpired or compelled him to do it, but he leaves behind a very distraught family including a wife and very young child. It's so, so, so horrible and hits so close to home because I've struggled with depression my entire life and around that age I remember it was extremely tough to deal with. And as much as those thoughts crossed my mind, I knew that wouldn't resolve anything. It's such a tragedy to see someone end their life like this, and it just reaffirms for me that any pain caused by depression isn't permanent and things will get better... and ending your life early destroys the lives of the people around you. I hope his soul has found peace and I grieve for my uncle and the rest of my family right now.
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like it should, because I will be using it in a a 45,000 sq.ft. building that will have almost every inch of its vertical surfaces covered with it. 

